her own fairytale;

this scene keeps playing in my mind, even though it doesn't mean anything to me. sometimes, i wish my love life was a drama, with its own happily ever afters. but fairytales don't exist, true love does.

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Laughing with her group of friends under the blue skies, sharing little secrets, dancing to the tune inside her head. She was alive; right here, right now. Sunlight in her hair, reflecting different hues of brown, and blonde. There wasn't a care in the world - time was waiting for her, and she was aware of it. It was hers to keep, to give, to bask in and nothing else mattered. Like a child, she found her innocence, embedded and intertwined among her heartstrings. "Live, love, laugh", she thought to herself, "this is it! I've found it, after searching for forever!"

Yet, out of the blue, she found him, looking at her, speaking with eyes she thought she wouldn't see again. That longing, that overwhelming love she know he once had for her. Her mended heart with threads were coming loose, she was loosing her grip on life, losing the sound of laughter, the melody in her head turned to minor chords. Taken aback, she tried to stop that dam of emotions waiting to gush out. The emergency button was pushed, walls came up, guards placed right along the walls alert in defensive mode, wanting to see if they needed to go into offensive. Grabbed her bag, she started to turn away. "Walk away", she told herself, "walk away. It'll be okay." Three steps ahead and that familiar touch around her wrist stopped her straight.

"Stay", he whispered amongst the crowd, amongst her friends that were still rooted to where they were. "Stay, please. Listen to me, won't you?"

"Let go of me," she breathed, barely heard, "let go of me, let me go." Determined not to cry, not to look back to what she once had and lost, she swallowed that bubble of tears that were forcing their way up her throat and down her cheeks. Still, in her heart that silent voice whispered, "Don't, don't let me go. Don't forget the love we shared, don't!" But even as her heart pleaded with him in another realm, she felt the grip on her wrist loosen. She knew then, he wouldn't fight for her, as much as she wanted him to, he wouldn't see past her words to her heart.

She closed her eyes, said a little prayer and walked away with memories and tears. Because right there and then, she knew that was what she was going to carry with her.

And she whispered, "I love you, always had, always will."

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hahah, not bad right? heheeh, dramas of my life. and no, it's not in relation to me, so don't think too much! busy week ahead! so.. kudos! :)

love,
hannah