so many things that happened. God chose to reveal the condition of my heart, to dig up issues that i thought i was over it. all the hurts, and pain, i don't feel it anymore but God knows anyway. and He chooses to dig them out so thoroughly and reveal them through pjanice. strangely, i felt really betrayed. how could He choose to uncover things i've been through so long ago, got over them, and now, You just decide to make me deal with them again. how could You show my deepest secrets to someone i barely even know? from then on, i kept questioning why, i kept trying to understand why You would do that. and after making me go through the whole process of me, the only word You said was, rest. does that even make sense?! like.. seriously?
but now i know. now i know my choice to major in social work is affirmed. the need to deal with my own issues before i can minister to others. i stand in awe of You, and i choose to obey and walk in Your ways.
"don't ever give up on God, cause God will NEVER give up on you."
- Nick Vujicic
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